Pizza Rat

Guess that’s what I get
For leaning into the best friend
Now I’ve got one more ex and
Two less hands here for holding

Ignored all of my reasons
For running far from my feelings
Now I’m down on my knees and
Watching you as you’re leaving

I hear you say goodbye
And I say I’m fine
But if I’m
Honest with myself

I’m a mess
Total fake
Thinking I
Might need some help ‘cause

I never change
Always getting in my own way
Oh look at this mess I’ve made
Look at this mess I’ve made oh

I’ll take the blame
For making you hate my name
Oh look at this mess I’ve made
Look at this mess I’ve made oh

Thought I learned my lesson
That love does not equal tension
Turns out I’m still the same kid
Falling hard for affection

And it hurts so bad when it’s over
When we both wake up and we’re sober
But God that first little moment
Feeling you lean in closer

I hear you say goodbye
And I say I’m fine
But if I’m
Honest with myself

I’m a mess
Total fake
Thinking I
Might need some help, ‘cause

I never change
Always getting in my own way
Oh look at this mess I’ve made
Look at this mess I’ve made oh

I’ll take the blame
For making you hate my name
Oh look at this mess I’ve made
Look at this mess I’ve made oh

I’m too in it
Need a few minutes
Feeling all lost in the waves now
Taking me over
Making me older
Making me doubt what I say now

Monsters in my head
Yeah they keep on calling
Neverending
Til the moment you walked in

You’ve got this hypnotic effect when you’re next to me
One look and you help me forget I was on my knees
Won’t let you go, keeping close to your energy
You take my hand and say baby come on
Stick with me
Stick with me

When my sky is falling
You’re all in
You’re all I need
When it starts raining
You save me
From all a these

Monsters in my head
Yeah they keep on calling
Neverending
Till the moment you walked in

You’ve got this hypnotic effect when you’re next to me
One look and you help me forget I was on my knees
Won’t let you go, keeping close to your energy
You take my hand and say baby come on
Stick with me
Stick with me
Stick with me
Stick with me

When my sky is falling
You’re all in
You’re all I need
When my sky is falling
You’re all in
You’re all I need

Try
Not to spin out too much
Oh but my mind
Keeps on tripping me up
Telling me lies
‘Till I’m coming undone
Emotionally drunk
Like I can’t get enough

Watch me fall
Down the rabbit hole
Spend hours counting all
The potential hypotheticals
Building walls
Just to knock them down
Leave me on the ground
In the fall out

I keep on leaving me a wreck
Words in my head, yeah they’re
Dead set on running parallel
Why do I do it, why do I do it
Always kicking myself, kicking myself

Yeah I’m kicking myself, kicking myself
Always kicking myself, kicking myself

Gotta stop talking in the mirror
God I don’t even wanna be her
Gotta start clearing up the picture
Instead of spending my evenings
Reaching
For the
Ceiling

And weekends
Grieving
Writing stories with sad endings
Picking
Myself apart all over again

I keep on leaving me a wreck
Words in my head, yeah they’re
Dead set on running parallel
Why do I do it, why do I do it
Always kicking myself, kicking myself

Yeah I’m kicking myself, kicking myself
Always kicking myself, kicking myself

Monsters in my head
Yeah they keep on calling
Neverending

You’ve got this hypnotic effect when you’re next to me
One look and you help me forget I was on my knees
Won’t let you go, keeping close to your energy
You take my hand and say baby come on
Stick with me
Stick with me

When my sky is falling
You’re all in
You’re all I need
When it starts raining
You save me
From all a these

Monsters in my head
Yeah they keep on calling
Neverending

You’ve got this hypnotic effect when you’re next to me
One look and you help me forget I was on my knees
Won’t let you go, keeping close to your energy
You take my hand and say baby come on
Stick with me
Stick with me
Stick with me
Stick with me

When my sky is falling
You’re all in
You’re all I need
When my sky is falling
You’re all in
You’re all I need