It's Kind of a Long Story

Started as an east coast vibe
Now I’m going worldwide we got this b**** going crazy
I used to take the Mazda for a drive
Now I’m on the 405 like it’s f*** you pay me
We really sick of standing outside had to push 'em all aside
That’s what you get for tryna play me
I bet they make a movie when I die just to talk about my life
They need an actor to portray me

I got this mother f***er clear like an eye drop
I got elevated flow I’m on a high top
I got a little something stacked like an IHOP
If this was ‘05 you would put it on your iPod
I’ma give you something that you can’t forget
Put the price up baby had to tax a bit
Know you saw the comma thought it was an accident
Well it wasn’t it’s about time the kid's buzzing
I'm tryna get a peek in the elevator
But if we talking peaks I need mine like the Himalayas
I’m talking yay high man I never had a vertical limit
I ain’t seen you put in work in a minute
I gotta put on for the family that goes for every person that’s in it
Used to scrape by working as a service attendant
Until I got more b**** I ain’t comfy I need the top floor
Doing anything to get that spot for us pop off

Started as an east coast vibe
Now I’m going worldwide we got this b**** going crazy
I used to take the Mazda for a drive
Now I’m on the 405 like it’s f*** you pay me
We really sick of standing outside had to push 'em all aside
That’s what you get for tryna play me
I bet they make a movie when I die just to talk about my life
They need an actor to portray me

I ain’t settling for nothing that be under an M
There’s only one of me there’s a hundred of them
‘Gotta listen close shhh I drop hundreds of gems
From the start no it wasn’t pretend
With the world on my back had to drop my own ego
Problems at the crib we couldn’t fix at Home Depot
Dad was on tilt moms off the vino
Room full of smoke like we lived in a casino she know
The day I moved out is when I opened my eyes
Looking for the truth like god show me a sign
I'm not religious or the holiest kind
But the blessings came to me when I opened my mind
I was running around the city man I knew I had to make something
Wasn’t raised a thief but if I had to I would take something
Worked at Frito lay I was writing on my break son
Plotting on a record waiting for the day we break one

The bar raising we keep moving it up
Ain't no surprises here they knew it was us
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch

I got faith restored why you pushing the brakes
I ain’t full of myself boy I’m full of mistakes
I came from humbling roots I’m here to stand and deliver
Had no one gassing me up except the man in the mirror
I used to work on my handles and now it’s handles of liquor
I write these songs in a dark room the candle the flicker
I stay practicing heavy for when the game's on the line
It’s like over and over I run the plays in my mind
I’m a psycho phew I’m taking my time
Rushing perfection is a dangerous crime
You gotta give it or take it that’s what you do till you make it
I had to roll with the punches and take the hits from the flagrants I'm saying

The bar raising we keep moving it up
And no surprises here they knew it was us
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch
An off game don’t mean I’m losing my touch
And no excuses I ain’t using a crutch
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch

I was falling had me stalling
I was way down now I'm balling
I don’ came up and I called it
I don’ came in the clutch with the game on the line I know

I operate from a higher place wait some decisions don’t dry erase
I'm doing what I can to fuel the flame like a fireplace
To make a bunch of money buy my mama a fire place
We make incredible songs and celebrate and get mad lit
Once upon a time in Hollywood, I’m like Brad Pitt
My homies say I live the life yeah just a tad bit
Learning how to move in this rap shit I told them that

The bar raising we keep moving it up
And no surprises here they knew it was us
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch
An off game don’t mean I’m losing my touch
And no excuses I ain’t using a crutch
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch

I was falling had me stalling
I was way down now I'm balling
I don' came up and I called it
I don’ came in the clutch with the game on the line I know

I said excuse me but you don’t understand where I'm at
I was all around the world arms spanned across the map
I been laying low and now it's time to pop out b**** I’m back
Now I’ma run it up snooze on the kid are you dumb or what
You better go get your numbers up

Now throw me the oop
I got to hire a Jerry Maguire I'm tired of hearing it
Show me the loot I had to listen they told me to shoot
Like it or not man I told them the truth
I stay away from the things that be causing me trouble
Just out here enjoying the view
Seeing s*** I never had boy I use to be a bag boy
And now I'm in my bag boy I knew
I don't do the rumors or the tabloids
I let you handle that noise
That s*** doesn't last know it's true
Each time that I move
Aye my free time ain't free time
It’s peace signs if you snooze
I got crease lines in my shoes
Walk with me you see what I do
Walk with me you see what I mean
Show you how to see it right through

I said excuse me but you don’t understand where I'm at
I was all around the world arms spanned across the map
I been laying low and now it's time to pop out b**** I’m back
Now Ima run it up snooze on the kid are you dumb or what
You better go get your numbers up

And that’s really on god
Getting paid for this s*** while I drink on the job
They so desperate for some clicks to the links on their blogs
Being real man it’s nothing but exhausting come on
I said excuse me please
Why they speak like they knew me
Right from the gate I had all of it written
When they speak of greats know one day they'll include me
It took me awhile I weathered the storm
B**** why you hating get better informed
No room to slip when the pressure is on
You isn’t with it then move it along

I said excuse me but you don’t understand where I'm at
I was all around the world arms spanned across the map
I been laying low and now it's time to pop out b**** I’m back
Now Ima run it up snooze on the kid are you dumb or what
You better go get your numbers up

I'm so tired of second guessing myself
Had to reevaluate you know check on my health
Cuz 2020 was a mess in itself
And all my plans went out the window in a flash I know you felt what I felt
It's all apart of the process I was still in the gym
Lost my passion for music had to feel it again
But now I'm back b**** and willing to win
Moving cautious like I'm walking with a drink that was filled to the brim
I've been on the phone with family just to make sure that they making ends
Older that I get the less concerned I am ‘bout making friends
That's just the way that it goes and I ain't famous you know
But this my life and you can stay for the show
No room for incompetence building up the confidence
Tell my story vivid like you watching through an Oculus
From submarines to a rocket ship
Can't do Semi Pro I don't play for the Tropics Flint
Nah I I treat the game like an architect
If you don't understand I don't blame you it's hard to get
Standing in the rain ice cold with my garments wet
Cuz when it rains it pours let the pain keep your heart in check
You see I'm here for the marathon
It's clear I carry on it's clear what Jerry's on
My aura is very strong they say that time will tell
I've waited very long for it to bubble up like Dom Perignon
Don't hit me now boy that ship sailed
2021 s*** shoutout to MixwelH
He got me on the beat I turn around write the script well
The way I'm sliding on it's like a car when it fishtails
I'll tell you this is not for beginners as I hop out the Sprinter
They can not copy my style b**** this is not like a printer
Always talk to myself cuz I love talking to winners
Started f***ing with lames and watch your pockets get thinner
You think you popping all of a sudden then poof it's like magic
Watch your fans disappear it's proof it just happens
It's like everything you say and you do it's not matching
Claim you always making some moves it's just cappin'
They say what goes around always comes around
See I've been coming up but I always hold it down
They say what goes around always comes around
See I've been coming up but I always hold it down

On top of the money on top of the flows
Top of the charts on top of the globe
Built a machine and it’s top of the line
Started with nothing I’m watching it grow
On top of my dollars on top of the gold
You ain’t on top of your s*** and it shows
Top of the morning get top in the morning
It’s a long story watch it unfold

Minding my business and finding a bag
Got use to the s*** I was dying to have
Used to put chips in a Frito Lay truck to get paid
It was honestly kind of a drag
I got it popping told 'em I quit
I sold the Mazda and packed up my s***
I had a girl at the time but we split
Moved to LA cuz I needed a lift
I got a fear over getting complacent
Too many friends with a talent that waste it
Feels like it bothers me more than it bothers them how is that possible homie I hate it
I know what I got know what I need
Life keep on moving slow down the speed
Buried my friend when he died I was drinking to cope that’s not how you properly grieve
I've seen some s*** that you wouldn’t believe
I’ve gotten swindled and I've been deceived
I thought I had it all figured out then, damn I was young and naive

On top of the money on top of the flows
Top of the charts on top of the globe
Built a machine and it’s top of the line
Started with nothing I’m watching it grow
On top of my dollars on top of the gold
You ain’t on top of your s*** and it shows
Top of the morning get top in the morning
It’s a long story watch it unfold

I’m stuck I want to have it all wave a magic wand
Make a bunch of money so all my homies could tag along
It’s like my life just one long dramatic song
I felt connection between us but now the static gone
Damn what did I miss my home was
Full of arguments what’s a hug and a kiss
Always grew up with the feeling it was something I did
And anything good or normal was just something I wished
Just ignored the s*** instead of having dialogue
The list of family problems probably go a mile long
While we’re at it here I got some more to pile on
And pile on and pile on and p-, you get it
Fans apologize like sorry I was late to it
That doesn’t matter bro I’m happy you relate to it
That’s half the reason I make music we being real
They won’t forget how you made them feel
I learned that early on and it stuck
F*** the cars and the bucks
I’m on par for a much larger purpose
Hope it all was enough when it all turns to dust
And we're all gone tell me was it worth it
Tell me was it worth it

I’m the only one that can call my bluff
Counting all my blessings hope they all add up
Even if I’m shot down I won’t wave a white towel
I stick around here when things got tough but

I’m stuck kind of feeling like I’m blowing my shot
And there’s a better way to cope than just hoping it stops
Hope it pans out fine and the plans on time
Then I exchange a message with a fan online he said
Man the message in your music is real
You speak the truth to me bro this how music should feel
I’ve been lost in a dark place abusing these pills
I hear your songs and they give me strength
I use them to heal
Wow
That’s when I realize it’s bigger than me
And all the little sh*** I’m stressing quits triggering me
Guess my words hold worth and a verse ain’t a verse
It’s a letter from my soul that I’ve given to this earth
Reminisce and think about my prior days a lot
Back at Frito Lay was stacking chips inside a box
Hoping that the rapping s*** eventually would pop
Waiting for the shift to end was staring at the clock
Mazda uninsured I had to drive it through the snow
Typical New England s*** seen it all before
93 that’s exit 4 I finally made it home
Came a long way I know

I’m the only one that can call my bluff
Counting all my blessings hope they all add up
Even if I’m shot down I won’t wave a white towel
I stick around here when things got tough but

I’m the only one that can call my bluff
Counting all my blessings hope they all add up
Even if I’m shot down I won’t wave a white towel
I stick around here when things got tough