JZAC

I'm Done with bullshit at this point I'm merely amused
'22 checking in it's like a yearly review
I ain't making no commitments unless I'm seeing it through
And that s*** ain't always easy to do nah it ain't easy to
Another year alive pushing my dreams
Finding balance while I'm looking at screens
I look out for the team care taker never doubt the regime
I built a following off loyalty without a machine
Make my coffee throw a beat on
Go get what I'm owed and that's just something we agreed on
They said it wouldn't be long
That's besides the point I'm finally feeling like I belong
Just being me that's the type of s*** that we on
I'm sick of stressing bout these numbers man they tire me out
Thinking I need a required amount to be happy
Stupid a** that's like chasing a high
I'll never reach kiss the happiness and wave it goodbye
While I'm scrolling on the internet comparing myself
It ain't right but being aware of it helps
I gotta put my phone on DND
Having conversations it's just me and me
List of thoughts are piling like lines are at the DMV
Everything gets handled please one at a time
Take a break and know I'm here for the ride
Now let it slide

I've been putting out these hits mother f***er who you think that I am
It's Mr. always overcome when on the brink of a jam
I'll be damned if I don't ever have the power to thrive
I ain't waiting til my flowers arrive I'll pat my own back
They said it's not the way I took it head on I ain't go back
Document the journey check the catalog and kodaks
Pictures worth a thousand words wrote at least a thousand words
Multiply that s*** by thousands I've been losing count of words
If we talking ‘bout a verse I can keep it round for round
I put it down just found a hearse ain't a day I'm out of work
I can put a clinic on that's just to show you how it works
Master of my craft now take a seat and watch the crowd observe

Fumblin' on you
I can't find the words to say what I want to
What we got, it's brand new
So we 'gon take our time, yea
Got a lot we've been through
Fumblin' on you
I can't find the words to say what I want to
What we got, it's brand new
So we 'gon take our time, yea
Got a lot we've been through
I'm off that hut hut hike
I'm up the gut then spike
I'm on my Mark Sanchez
I'm off her butt all night
So yea
Lemme get in for a minute
I'm thinking the way that the wheels have been spinning
I'm going against 1st and couple a inches
But yea she flooding the engine
And that's that 2 seat
That fumblerooski
Stay loose
She off the truly
And I tote that rock
But that ain't no excuse
She thinks that's bougie, uh
I gotta move these or I lose
She hit like Bruschi and that proves
You cant expect nothing but truth
I just been
Fumblin' on you
I can't find the words to say what I want to
What we got, it's brand new
So we 'gon take our time, yea
Got a lot we've been through
Fumblin' on you
I can't find the words to say what I want to
What we got, it's brand new
So we 'gon take our time, yea
Got a lot we've been through
Aye, she know that she got it but she too humble to brag
I drop the ball on occasion but never fumble the bag
She get up early and often she gotta work for the man
While all these Instagram [bleep] get paid to twerk on the gram
No offense
Smoke a little bit to get the mind right
Never really yearn for the limelight
Spend a couple hundred for a cheap thrill

Wasn't really worth it in hindsight
Follow you baby
Why don't you show me the way
I know the one when I see her
I ain't gon' throw it away
Fumblin' on you
I can't find the words to say what I want to
What we got, it's brand new
So we 'gon take our time, yea
Got a lot we've been through
Fumblin' on you
I can't find the words to say what I want to
What we got, it's brand new
So we 'gon take our time, yea
Got a lot we've been through

Started as an east coast vibe
Now I’m going worldwide we got this b**** going crazy
I used to take the Mazda for a drive
Now I’m on the 405 like it’s f*** you pay me
We really sick of standing outside had to push 'em all aside
That’s what you get for tryna play me
I bet they make a movie when I die just to talk about my life
They need an actor to portray me

I got this mother f***er clear like an eye drop
I got elevated flow I’m on a high top
I got a little something stacked like an IHOP
If this was ‘05 you would put it on your iPod
I’ma give you something that you can’t forget
Put the price up baby had to tax a bit
Know you saw the comma thought it was an accident
Well it wasn’t it’s about time the kid's buzzing
I'm tryna get a peek in the elevator
But if we talking peaks I need mine like the Himalayas
I’m talking yay high man I never had a vertical limit
I ain’t seen you put in work in a minute
I gotta put on for the family that goes for every person that’s in it
Used to scrape by working as a service attendant
Until I got more b**** I ain’t comfy I need the top floor
Doing anything to get that spot for us pop off

Started as an east coast vibe
Now I’m going worldwide we got this b**** going crazy
I used to take the Mazda for a drive
Now I’m on the 405 like it’s f*** you pay me
We really sick of standing outside had to push 'em all aside
That’s what you get for tryna play me
I bet they make a movie when I die just to talk about my life
They need an actor to portray me

I ain’t settling for nothing that be under an M
There’s only one of me there’s a hundred of them
‘Gotta listen close shhh I drop hundreds of gems
From the start no it wasn’t pretend
With the world on my back had to drop my own ego
Problems at the crib we couldn’t fix at Home Depot
Dad was on tilt moms off the vino
Room full of smoke like we lived in a casino she know
The day I moved out is when I opened my eyes
Looking for the truth like god show me a sign
I'm not religious or the holiest kind
But the blessings came to me when I opened my mind
I was running around the city man I knew I had to make something
Wasn’t raised a thief but if I had to I would take something
Worked at Frito lay I was writing on my break son
Plotting on a record waiting for the day we break one

Holding on I'm holding on
Table dirty from the weed that they roll it on
Aye what's going on? Aye what's going on?
Clothes dirty on the floor but I throw them on

I've been waiting
Phone at the crib let me hit you right back
I've been faded
Like a phone without a case man, I feel I might crack

I don't know where I've been
Tryna find myself again
And I don't know where I'll go
May tomorrow bring me hope
Cuz I don't know where I've been
Tryna find myself again
And I don't know where I'll go
May tomorrow bring me hope
But I don't know

Empty bottle and my friends all gone
Tryna fight the feeling why I been so wrong
I gotta keep my ten toes strong
Best foot forward man it's been so long, I know
Gotta embrace it you gotta grow with it
Where am I going I learned to go with it
Learning the roles I guess I'll roll with it
Get through the lows and we'll be okay

Making an effort that isn't effortless
Half-empty thoughts for the pessimists
Check the estimates
Contact list full of numbers still feeling desolate
It's heavy now make room for the rest of it I told you that

I've been waiting
Phone at the crib let me hit you right back
I've been faded
Like a phone without a case man I feel I might crack

I don't know where I've been
Tryna find myself again
And I don't know where I'll go
May tomorrow bring me hope
Cuz I don't know where I've been
Tryna find myself again
And I don't know where I'll go
May tomorrow bring me hope
But I don't know

Live behind decisions I chose
Peaks feel good and those valleys get low
Chains for the tires in the rain hail snow
It's like this everywhere that I go
Everywhere that I
Lot of m************ go down don't come up
Voice in my head don't shut up
Blew an opportunity I tried to call back
But she hung up
Anything to try and get one up run it

Back of my head the thoughts killing me
I don't have a second to spare well not willingly
Way too much effort in people who not feeling me
Equivalent of burning myself with hot spilling tea
I'm talking like Jerry man what you gon do
I need a pick up like half court 2 on 2s
Guess it's just another obstacle I move on through
While I'm looking at the runway that I flew on to

Left me out to dry but I came back
Boy you gotta know we don't play that
Boy you gotta know we don't play that
I been laying low I had to stay back

Can't check me nah you can't check me
No off hands the boy was born lefty
Crunch time is bout how you move when you tired
But be careful putting fuel on the fire
Cuz you the one that's gotta

Live behind decisions you chose
Peaks feel good but those valleys get low
Chains for the tires in the rain hail snow
It's like that everywhere that you go
Everywhere that you
Lot of m************ go down don't come up
Voice in your head don't shut up
Blew an opportunity you tried to call back
But she hung up
Anything to try to get one up run it

It's all independent the fans backing it
Real love this ain't for the fame or band wagon shit
I'm tryna move around it get depressing at home
Life been hitting like Sylvester Stallone
It's been a rocky week
Brain work I ain't used my heart in a while
Gotta get the fans bouncing off the audio files
I got em waiting on my sentence like they caught in a trial
Why you hating don't get caught in denial
Yeah I remember y'all

Left me out to dry but I came back
Boy you gotta know we don't play that
Boy you gotta know we don't play that
I been laying low I had to stay back

I was at work they did nada
No magic buttons on life ain't no ta-da
Go gotta the flow so Globetrotter
3 pack I'm serving em all a whole lotta

Live behind decisions I chose
Peaks feel good and the valleys get low
Chains for the tires in the rain hail snow
It's like this everywhere that I go everywhere that I go

The bar raising we keep moving it up
Ain't no surprises here they knew it was us
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch

I got faith restored why you pushing the brakes
I ain’t full of myself boy I’m full of mistakes
I came from humbling roots I’m here to stand and deliver
Had no one gassing me up except the man in the mirror
I used to work on my handles and now it’s handles of liquor
I write these songs in a dark room the candle the flicker
I stay practicing heavy for when the game's on the line
It’s like over and over I run the plays in my mind
I’m a psycho phew I’m taking my time
Rushing perfection is a dangerous crime
You gotta give it or take it that’s what you do till you make it
I had to roll with the punches and take the hits from the flagrants I'm saying

The bar raising we keep moving it up
And no surprises here they knew it was us
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch
An off game don’t mean I’m losing my touch
And no excuses I ain’t using a crutch
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch

I was falling had me stalling
I was way down now I'm balling
I don’ came up and I called it
I don’ came in the clutch with the game on the line I know

I operate from a higher place wait some decisions don’t dry erase
I'm doing what I can to fuel the flame like a fireplace
To make a bunch of money buy my mama a fire place
We make incredible songs and celebrate and get mad lit
Once upon a time in Hollywood, I’m like Brad Pitt
My homies say I live the life yeah just a tad bit
Learning how to move in this rap shit I told them that

The bar raising we keep moving it up
And no surprises here they knew it was us
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch
An off game don’t mean I’m losing my touch
And no excuses I ain’t using a crutch
Apologies if I was doing too much
But I always came through in the clutch

I was falling had me stalling
I was way down now I'm balling
I don' came up and I called it
I don’ came in the clutch with the game on the line I know

Keep your energy right
This is not some expert advice
But certain s*** you gotta value and protect with your life
Check the calendar no room for acting extra tonight
I ain't preaching I'm just shedding some light

Got a homie at the crib he hate the way that he live
Cuz his family take from him he just give and he give
He had to cut them off move, s*** he did what he did
I don't blame him for the way that he slid

Cuz you gotta move cautious
My window closed
Don't mean to be cold
But I'm feeling exhausted
I don't care who talking hey
Hey I gotta move cautious
Don't mean to be cold
But my window closed
And it happens too often
So don't come knocking
So don't come

Hear no evil see no evil
Problems always gonna come back
Gotta understand at the end of it we all just people
And people they don't know how to act

Let me get a bottle of bubbly for your entrance
Everyone should stop acknowledge you're in attendance
Just to pay attention to you, wait hold the sentence
That's the way you move is that really what you expected?
Like every argument we should back you up
Funny you crack me up silly you Daffy Duck
Please don't pay no mind to jealous unhappy f****
They want what you got, reassurance now dap me up
Is that what you want?
Really that's the way that you think?
Gotta hear about your issues every day that we link
I'm here to help but you really should be paying a shrink
F*** it someone in here make me a drink I said

I gotta move cautious
My window closed
Don't mean to be cold
But I'm feeling exhausted
I don't care who talking, hey
Hey I gotta move cautious
Don't mean to be cold
But my window closed
And it happens too often
So don't come knocking
So don't come

Hear no evil see no evil
Problems always gonna come back
Gotta understand at the end of it we all just people
And people they don't know how to act

24 hours in a day what the f*** you gonna say
Pick a lane man you gotta choose one
That's what they used to tell me everyday
Caught a few along the way
Don't be afraid if you gotta lose one
I'm tryna take it higher
The boy is on fire
You preaching to the quire you know that
Never been a liar the boy is on fire
I'll take it to the wire you know that

Reach back had to grab me a hit
I'm on the clock game time
It's like I'm drafting a pick
Like I genie I could grant you a wish
I'm so drunk I just might smoke
Something if they pass me the shit
I gotta slow down

Plenty of it here to make it go around
They was going slow and so I drove around
Ain't no f****** question course I hold it down
Of course I hold it down
All I ever knew this ain't no news
If you know Jerry that's the way I am
Shut the door on me
Like when you signing out of AIM
I come back just to f*** em up
I promise I ain't playing man
I do what I want and I'm the only one that say I can

I get what I desire
Pull up front door like I'm the driver
Wearing all black attire
It's right now f*** what you did prior

24 hours in a day what the f*** you gonna say
Pick a lane man you gotta choose one
That's what they used to tell me everyday
Caught a few along the way
Don't be afraid if you gotta lose one
I'm tryna take it higher
The boy is on fire
You preaching to the quire you know that
Never been a liar the boy is on fire
I'll take it to the wire you know that

Plotting domination in the evil lair
Cutting records go and leave a prayer
Fans been waiting patient while I made it
Want the word on what's the latest
So I caught em up to speed
About my life a new season aired
What's up with Jerry why's he all fired up
What's on your mind why you all fired up
Down to the wire but I ain't wired up
Trust me I don't it for suits for any higher ups nah

I said excuse me but you don’t understand where I'm at
I was all around the world arms spanned across the map
I been laying low and now it's time to pop out b**** I’m back
Now I’ma run it up snooze on the kid are you dumb or what
You better go get your numbers up

Now throw me the oop
I got to hire a Jerry Maguire I'm tired of hearing it
Show me the loot I had to listen they told me to shoot
Like it or not man I told them the truth
I stay away from the things that be causing me trouble
Just out here enjoying the view
Seeing s*** I never had boy I use to be a bag boy
And now I'm in my bag boy I knew
I don't do the rumors or the tabloids
I let you handle that noise
That s*** doesn't last know it's true
Each time that I move
Aye my free time ain't free time
It’s peace signs if you snooze
I got crease lines in my shoes
Walk with me you see what I do
Walk with me you see what I mean
Show you how to see it right through

I said excuse me but you don’t understand where I'm at
I was all around the world arms spanned across the map
I been laying low and now it's time to pop out b**** I’m back
Now Ima run it up snooze on the kid are you dumb or what
You better go get your numbers up

And that’s really on god
Getting paid for this s*** while I drink on the job
They so desperate for some clicks to the links on their blogs
Being real man it’s nothing but exhausting come on
I said excuse me please
Why they speak like they knew me
Right from the gate I had all of it written
When they speak of greats know one day they'll include me
It took me awhile I weathered the storm
B**** why you hating get better informed
No room to slip when the pressure is on
You isn’t with it then move it along

I said excuse me but you don’t understand where I'm at
I was all around the world arms spanned across the map
I been laying low and now it's time to pop out b**** I’m back
Now Ima run it up snooze on the kid are you dumb or what
You better go get your numbers up

Heartbroken and bruised
Check Emotional cues
Read the body language
Said that she ain't spoken to dude
They were f***** in March
Found out she pregnant in May
When she told him the news
She couldn't beg him to stay

You see he panicked then dipped
Knew it was as his but he lied
He had a main girl
She was just the chick on the side
And now she stuck with a baby
She only 20 and change
All her friends are in college
She feels alone and ashamed

She tryna hold in the pain
act like everything sweet
After money for rent
She scarping Pennies to eat

Her momma out of the picture
Her dad will help when he can
He on and off of the bottle
He been through hell for the fam
She got a brother in jail
Another brother that died
He had cancer at 12
It really f***** up her mind

See they were kids at the time
But she ain't feel like a kid
Cuz all the s*** that she dealt with
It really didn't align it's heavy
stressed for the rest of the week
Antidepressant to sleep
Sadly just scratching the surface
Know that the rest of it's deep

Cold heart cold heart
She was left with nothing but a cold heart
Stuck inside the house couldn't go far
The movie ain't the same without a co-star
Cold heart cold heart
Look what she becoming with a cold heart
Living with the doubt you'll never go far
The movie ain't the same without a co-star

Heartbroken and bruised
But he don't know what to do
This chick is saying she's pregnant
He's trying to soak in the news
And He don't wanna admit it
Deep down he know that he's wrong
Tryna run the problem like he'll ignore it it's gone

His dad is out of the picture
His mama barely around
A different boyfriend a month
Now she rarely in town
His role models ain't role models
A list of his goals is all materialistic
It won't do s*** for the soul
No one to offer him guidance
Won't show emotion just hide it
Got a bottle of liquor and marijuana's his diet
He got a cousin that's down south with room in a townhouse
That offered him work
Off the grid he might bounce out
See running is easy accountability's hard
But it's all that he's ever known
He's really been scarred
Got decisions to make
But he ain't planned them that far
Put it all in the rearview as he packs up the car and dips

Cold heart cold heart
She was left with nothing but a cold heart
Stuck inside the house couldn't go far
The movie ain't the same without a co-star
Cold heart cold heart
Look what she becoming with a cold heart
Living with the doubt you'll never go far
The movie ain't the same without a co-star

Way way way to hard
Wrap my head around
Way way way to hard
Wrap my head around

I'm so tired of second guessing myself
Had to reevaluate you know check on my health
Cuz 2020 was a mess in itself
And all my plans went out the window in a flash I know you felt what I felt
It's all apart of the process I was still in the gym
Lost my passion for music had to feel it again
But now I'm back b**** and willing to win
Moving cautious like I'm walking with a drink that was filled to the brim
I've been on the phone with family just to make sure that they making ends
Older that I get the less concerned I am ‘bout making friends
That's just the way that it goes and I ain't famous you know
But this my life and you can stay for the show
No room for incompetence building up the confidence
Tell my story vivid like you watching through an Oculus
From submarines to a rocket ship
Can't do Semi Pro I don't play for the Tropics Flint
Nah I I treat the game like an architect
If you don't understand I don't blame you it's hard to get
Standing in the rain ice cold with my garments wet
Cuz when it rains it pours let the pain keep your heart in check
You see I'm here for the marathon
It's clear I carry on it's clear what Jerry's on
My aura is very strong they say that time will tell
I've waited very long for it to bubble up like Dom Perignon
Don't hit me now boy that ship sailed
2021 s*** shoutout to MixwelH
He got me on the beat I turn around write the script well
The way I'm sliding on it's like a car when it fishtails
I'll tell you this is not for beginners as I hop out the Sprinter
They can not copy my style b**** this is not like a printer
Always talk to myself cuz I love talking to winners
Started f***ing with lames and watch your pockets get thinner
You think you popping all of a sudden then poof it's like magic
Watch your fans disappear it's proof it just happens
It's like everything you say and you do it's not matching
Claim you always making some moves it's just cappin'
They say what goes around always comes around
See I've been coming up but I always hold it down
They say what goes around always comes around
See I've been coming up but I always hold it down

On top of the money on top of the flows
Top of the charts on top of the globe
Built a machine and it’s top of the line
Started with nothing I’m watching it grow
On top of my dollars on top of the gold
You ain’t on top of your s*** and it shows
Top of the morning get top in the morning
It’s a long story watch it unfold

Minding my business and finding a bag
Got use to the s*** I was dying to have
Used to put chips in a Frito Lay truck to get paid
It was honestly kind of a drag
I got it popping told 'em I quit
I sold the Mazda and packed up my s***
I had a girl at the time but we split
Moved to LA cuz I needed a lift
I got a fear over getting complacent
Too many friends with a talent that waste it
Feels like it bothers me more than it bothers them how is that possible homie I hate it
I know what I got know what I need
Life keep on moving slow down the speed
Buried my friend when he died I was drinking to cope that’s not how you properly grieve
I've seen some s*** that you wouldn’t believe
I’ve gotten swindled and I've been deceived
I thought I had it all figured out then, damn I was young and naive

On top of the money on top of the flows
Top of the charts on top of the globe
Built a machine and it’s top of the line
Started with nothing I’m watching it grow
On top of my dollars on top of the gold
You ain’t on top of your s*** and it shows
Top of the morning get top in the morning
It’s a long story watch it unfold

I’m stuck I want to have it all wave a magic wand
Make a bunch of money so all my homies could tag along
It’s like my life just one long dramatic song
I felt connection between us but now the static gone
Damn what did I miss my home was
Full of arguments what’s a hug and a kiss
Always grew up with the feeling it was something I did
And anything good or normal was just something I wished
Just ignored the s*** instead of having dialogue
The list of family problems probably go a mile long
While we’re at it here I got some more to pile on
And pile on and pile on and p-, you get it
Fans apologize like sorry I was late to it
That doesn’t matter bro I’m happy you relate to it
That’s half the reason I make music we being real
They won’t forget how you made them feel
I learned that early on and it stuck
F*** the cars and the bucks
I’m on par for a much larger purpose
Hope it all was enough when it all turns to dust
And we're all gone tell me was it worth it
Tell me was it worth it

I’m the only one that can call my bluff
Counting all my blessings hope they all add up
Even if I’m shot down I won’t wave a white towel
I stick around here when things got tough but

I’m stuck kind of feeling like I’m blowing my shot
And there’s a better way to cope than just hoping it stops
Hope it pans out fine and the plans on time
Then I exchange a message with a fan online he said
Man the message in your music is real
You speak the truth to me bro this how music should feel
I’ve been lost in a dark place abusing these pills
I hear your songs and they give me strength
I use them to heal
Wow
That’s when I realize it’s bigger than me
And all the little sh*** I’m stressing quits triggering me
Guess my words hold worth and a verse ain’t a verse
It’s a letter from my soul that I’ve given to this earth
Reminisce and think about my prior days a lot
Back at Frito Lay was stacking chips inside a box
Hoping that the rapping s*** eventually would pop
Waiting for the shift to end was staring at the clock
Mazda uninsured I had to drive it through the snow
Typical New England s*** seen it all before
93 that’s exit 4 I finally made it home
Came a long way I know

I’m the only one that can call my bluff
Counting all my blessings hope they all add up
Even if I’m shot down I won’t wave a white towel
I stick around here when things got tough but

I’m the only one that can call my bluff
Counting all my blessings hope they all add up
Even if I’m shot down I won’t wave a white towel
I stick around here when things got tough