Arduous Conundrum
Song by Jasmine J Walker
E
The truth is both healing and deadly
Truth can reveal
Truth can kill
What truth to you is real?
Let me know
Many lames tried to box me in
Got em stuck with the lemon face
Every time I win
Looney Buffoons in my presence can't pretend
That they don't want me
Under the earth
Smothered in dirt
Mothers in black
Crying in church
Big body tings
I can't fit up in ya hearse
Oh you mad lil n****
Cuz I finally know my worth
Started daily affirmations
Learned to put God first
Demons move better
When you upgrade yourself
Well I'm a steel soldier
In the army of the lord
Living by the pen
But not afraid to die by my sword
I talk heavy
Cuz I walk heavy
With the Holy Spirit
This divine connection
Got me feeling fearless
I'm wise enough to know
Not to move reckless
Always remain humble
Cuz even the most favored man
By God could yet and still
Suddenly lose it all
Don't get high up on your horse
You just might stumble and fall
No life insurance or a will
Now ya family holding dead weight
Meetings with ya lawyers and ain't nothing in the briefcase
Moms yelling to the Lord help us for Peeps Sake
Ego on ten but you softer than a cheesecake
Lip service is what you give when it's time to get down
That's why real triple OGs never want you around
It's either put in work lil homey or it's time to kiss ground
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
These for all them dark days
When I had them dark thoughts
I felt so cast away from my God's heart
Like Tom when he lost Wilson
I was engulfed by my emotions
Like titanic in the deep
I was Jack up in the ocean
Drifted away from my purpose on purpose
The Lord's plans for me
I just wouldn't conceive
Couldn't believe
Out of 7 billion souls that walked the earth
I was the one anointed to defend God's word
You should've of killed the beef
Now ya out here sprawled out
Homicide got ya lined up
Body chalked out
Revenge killings on high
They bled the block out
I wanna unite my people from
Their masters like right now
Do something big in music like Steve Stoute
Let the kids back home know
That somebody cares
This for my day one supporters
Who for me were always there
I wanna build the block up with
Community giving
Health living
Make all the mamas feel appreciated
Teach them all to buy land
That's how you get initiated
In the black wealth club
Highly anticipated
Don't buy no cars
Cuz that value gets depreciated
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
My mark on the culture
Is how I'll know I've made it
Not looking for no accolades
Or even to be the greatest
Wanna kick my feet up in my mansion
With my fam elated
Cuz my destiny the devil tried
But just couldn't take it
My mark on the culture
Is how I'll know I've made it
Not looking for no accolades
Or even to be the greatest
Wanna kick my feet up in my mansion
With my fam elated
Cuz my destiny the devil tried
But just couldn't take it
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
Truth can reveal
Truth can kill
What truth to you is real?
Let me know
Many lames tried to box me in
Got em stuck with the lemon face
Every time I win
Looney Buffoons in my presence can't pretend
That they don't want me
Under the earth
Smothered in dirt
Mothers in black
Crying in church
Big body tings
I can't fit up in ya hearse
Oh you mad lil n****
Cuz I finally know my worth
Started daily affirmations
Learned to put God first
Demons move better
When you upgrade yourself
Well I'm a steel soldier
In the army of the lord
Living by the pen
But not afraid to die by my sword
I talk heavy
Cuz I walk heavy
With the Holy Spirit
This divine connection
Got me feeling fearless
I'm wise enough to know
Not to move reckless
Always remain humble
Cuz even the most favored man
By God could yet and still
Suddenly lose it all
Don't get high up on your horse
You just might stumble and fall
No life insurance or a will
Now ya family holding dead weight
Meetings with ya lawyers and ain't nothing in the briefcase
Moms yelling to the Lord help us for Peeps Sake
Ego on ten but you softer than a cheesecake
Lip service is what you give when it's time to get down
That's why real triple OGs never want you around
It's either put in work lil homey or it's time to kiss ground
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
These for all them dark days
When I had them dark thoughts
I felt so cast away from my God's heart
Like Tom when he lost Wilson
I was engulfed by my emotions
Like titanic in the deep
I was Jack up in the ocean
Drifted away from my purpose on purpose
The Lord's plans for me
I just wouldn't conceive
Couldn't believe
Out of 7 billion souls that walked the earth
I was the one anointed to defend God's word
You should've of killed the beef
Now ya out here sprawled out
Homicide got ya lined up
Body chalked out
Revenge killings on high
They bled the block out
I wanna unite my people from
Their masters like right now
Do something big in music like Steve Stoute
Let the kids back home know
That somebody cares
This for my day one supporters
Who for me were always there
I wanna build the block up with
Community giving
Health living
Make all the mamas feel appreciated
Teach them all to buy land
That's how you get initiated
In the black wealth club
Highly anticipated
Don't buy no cars
Cuz that value gets depreciated
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
My mark on the culture
Is how I'll know I've made it
Not looking for no accolades
Or even to be the greatest
Wanna kick my feet up in my mansion
With my fam elated
Cuz my destiny the devil tried
But just couldn't take it
My mark on the culture
Is how I'll know I've made it
Not looking for no accolades
Or even to be the greatest
Wanna kick my feet up in my mansion
With my fam elated
Cuz my destiny the devil tried
But just couldn't take it
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz
Just tryna find out who I really is
And if I'm gon make it out in show biz