Pyrrhic Whim

I’ve been dreamin' ‘bout the way those colors fade into your face
All but gold is there to say, dear, your heart is a disgrace
I’m not talkin bout yours, no, I’m talkin ‘bout mine
I’m sittin' up straight, but your words creepin' up my spine

And every day you’ve got something new to teach me ‘bout myself
Here I am waiting, wanting, putting books up on the shelf
Hoping you might realize that I was once somebody else
Since the day that I first started, to deconstruct myself
Myself

I want to tell you things are fine, I want to tell you that you’re wrong, but I can’t find the words to lie
I’ll try to write it
You’ve had my eye for so long
You know my whole life
What makes me sick, what makes me strong with no companion by my side

And every day you’ve got something new to teach me ‘bout myself
Here I am waiting, wanting, putting books up on the shelf
I’m hoping you could forget I used to be somebody else
Since the day that I first started, to deconstruct myself
Myself

You waited on me waited on me now
You’re not waiting on me, waiting on me now
Now

And every day you’ve got something new to teach me ‘bout myself
Here I am waiting, wanting, putting books up on the shelf
Hoping that you could love me for who I am if I’m someone else
Since the first day I started studying

And every day you’ve got something new to teach me bout myself
Here I am waiting, wanting, putting books up on the shelf
Hoping that you could love me for who I am if I’m someone else
Since the first day I started to deconstruct myself
Myself

And every day you’ve got something
And here I am sitting, waiting it out
I was hoping that you would love me
Since the day I first started