Dyllan

It is a parallel universe
And you did crawl out of your shell
This is why time doesn’t matter
Because you always loved me
And crabs walk sideways
And time doesn’t move forward
You shifted your weight
To one side
I was always here in the middle
Of this reality

I tell it to the pillow
I tell it to your hair
I tell it to your back
When you aren’t there
I tell it to my friends
I tell it to myself
And I know you know it well

Just throwing the idea out there to see where the
Ball bounces
You were skipping the largest stones
Over the shortest distance

So basically you’re saying it’ll take years to feel it
And yet I feel it shining through like morning light

I tell it to the pillow
I tell it to your hair
I tell it to your back
When you aren’t there
I tell it to my friends
I tell it to myself
And I know you know it well

Oh that light
And it's in me and it’s just dawn
It’s always the sun coming up
It’s never going down
I told you this
It’s consistent
It’s always been
Since the fireworks on the Fourth of July

I tell it to the pillow
I tell it to your hair
I tell it to your back
When you aren’t there
I tell it to my friends
I tell it to myself
And I know you know
I know you know

I tell it to the pillow
I tell it to your hair
I tell it to your back
When you aren’t there
I tell it to my friends
I tell it to myself
And I know you know
I know you know
I know you know
I know you know it well

I tell it to the pillow
I tell it to your hair
I tell it to your back
When you aren’t there

I have never been so terrified of someone
So unqualified undignified

Disqualified
You are disqualified

You have not earned my love
Or trust
The story was always about you
Everything has always been about you

Oh did you miss me you’re busy with
Everyone else
A guru with no followers
A lover with no lovers
A brother with no brother

Oh did you miss me you’re busy
Talking to yourself
Aa guru with no followers
A lover with no lovers
A brother with no brother

You are disqualified from my life
You have not earned my love or trust
Although you think you must
You are disqualified from my life
We are not the same person
Don’t drink the same poison

Tragic upsetting I’ve been waiting for
The day that you come see me again
You want to rip into me
Like I rip into these pages
Put me under your spell
Lurking behind doors
You’re traumatizing me
Who could you mistake me for
Since you think we’re the same person
The same poison

You are disqualified from my life
You have not earned my love or trust
Although you think you must
You are disqualified from my life
We are not the same person
Don’t drink the same poison

You are my pain my loss the story was the story was
You are my pain my loss the story was the story was

Now you go questioning your humanity
That’s why you’re so used to being a victim
But you’re not my problem

You are disqualified from my life
You have not earned my love or trust
Although you think you must
You are disqualified from my life
We are not the same person
Don’t drink the same poison

You are my pain my loss the story was the story was
You are my pain my loss the story was the story was

White T-Shirt
And blue dreams
Wake up, watch me sleep
Our doomsday love story

I want no more than this
It's quarantine bliss
We're Mid-City royalty

Why'd ya have to be so lovely?
Coffee kisses in the morning
Feeding all my senses for me
Don't let go without a warning

You're so patient and wise
That cinnamon smile
Can fix any problem

Why'd ya have to
Be so lovely?
Sourdough is in the oven
Feeding all my cravings for me
Don't let go my quarantine king
Quarantine king
Quarantine king
Quarantine king

Why'd ya have to be so lovely?
Taking all my nightmares from me
Calm my nerves settle my tummy
Let me be your quarantine queen
Quarantine queen
Quarantine queen
Quarantine queen

So now you think that there's a part of you
Who could love someone or who could screw
Things I was tryin to rationalize
I just can’t let it overtake my mind

You tell me to give up the family
I tell you I’ll stay in society
I won’t follow you out into the wild
But maybe someday we could have a child

One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants
One of us wants what the other can’t give
One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants what the other can’t live

One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants
One of us wants what the other can’t give
One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants what the other can’t live

So now I think that there’s a part of me
Who could love someone or who could be free
But I’m just trying to be like us again
And baby I know that is no way to win

But this picture always had you in it
Must be removed I have to live with it

One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants
One of us wants what the other can’t give
One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants
One of us one of us wants what the other can’t live

And it’s an age old struggle
I don’t know why I’m so surprised
I don’t know why I choose this
When I know I’m just gonna cry

And it’s an age old story
I don’t know why I’m so surprised
I’ve gotta swallow up my pride
Got to accept that you’re not mine

I’m seeing what I was so clearly
It’s like I never left
That long drive
Through the Hollywood Hills on Sunset
And I would use all my gas money
To get to him

You need speed to succeed
In Brooklyn and a bike
And I wanted to tell you I missed you in bed by my side
But I just whined
Try to make it seem like I have my own life
Try to make it seem like I have my own life

My fears are fluff to you
My fears are nothing they’re just
Right here biting

Forgot to tell you about the shooting
Shoulda made a list but then what’s the use
It happens almost every day
And you say dark things are happening every which way you look

And I said and I said too much
But it’s just a mantra
And I don’t know how to show you what it really means
That I need speed to succeed
I wanted to tell you that I missed you in bed
By my side

But I just whined silently
and I know you’re tired
And I know you’re tired
And I know you’re tired
And I know we’re tired

Took four trains to get to you
Considered picking up a tree
As a consolation
As if I was in the wrong
‘Cause I didn’t wanna be right

Try to make it seem like we just need some light
Try to make it seem like we just need some lights

And I said and I said too much
But it’s just to myself
And I don’t know how to show you what it really means
That I need speed to succeed
I wanted to tell you that I missed you in bed
By my side

But I just whined silently
And I know we’re tired frankly
And I know we’re tired
And I know we’re tired
And I know we’re tired
And I know we’re tired
And I know we’re tired

My fears are something
My fears are something they’re just
Right here biting
And you’re off on your bike and you’re riding