Drowning

A life spent with you keeps dragging on
Set your sights forward I’m already gone
If one more truth’s held
'I’ll take the blame it’s not worth this hell you’re just not the same

I’m a tree inside your hurricane, bending beneath your winds
Give me space to achieve my dreams, you’re drowning me, drowning me

You try to hold me down, gasping for breath I try to turn around
My body’s on the ground covered in judgments my voice contains no sound

Even when it’s dry inside
I’m left out where the rain can’t hide
Just let me in I swear I’ll try
To give you what you want inside
And the pressure it kills you
Though I try to stop too
Just call it on your time
Don’t blame me it’s no crime to want it
Why don’t you

Why can’t I let this go, let this go
Why can’t I behave

Pardon me you’ve lost your sight
While everyone enjoys the sun
Relationships are more than one
So don’t let your eyes catch the light or they’ll catch fire

Why can’t I let this go, let this go
Why can’t I behave
'Cause you’re too far from the truth

Don’t let me go too
Don’t let me go

Are you there
I want to know

Searching so hard for someone to find
Starting to believe that I’ve gone blind
This game of hide and seek
Is harder than I’ll ever know

If hiding is your game then you’re really good
By definition real is something understood
If that’s the case then real is something that you’ll never be

Are you there
I want to know

Start the story with a phone call
Talks of ending all we made
Let’s not dance around the question
Where would we be if you stayed

I tried my hardest to forgive you
Ignoring calls that came my way
Now I’m lying on the floor
Trying not to think of you

We were only guilty bodies
Not yet ready to let go
And I’ve been trying really hard to let you go
But find it harder when I gave you all of me you’d ever know

Don’t pick me up

Distant visions cloud my mind
Take my life and run
More and more I’m hard to find
Take my life and run

Which would be worse, to live as a monster or die as a good man

Do all I can to let this go
Comes crawling back to my head though
The world’s onto my every move
To live or die I have to choose

Searching for my sanity
Take my life and run
Death can only set me free
Take my life and run

Look down on all the friends I made
This gig is up this masquerade
My heart could only take so much
I think this time I’ve had enough

When you called I came running leaving everything behind
Kissing you at the doorstep for our very first time
You just laughed from what I recall, telling me that it’s okay
I missed your mouth and I remember walking awkwardly away

Let’s just say I wasn’t over this unspeakable mistake
Today we laugh but on the inside I’m drowning in the heartache
If time machines were invented I would go through time and space
Kissing you like I had wanted and pulling you up to my face

I’m the glue to your paper-mache heart
Putting the pieces back together when it all falls apart
I know I know I’m the reason it’s broken
But baby I’m the super glue it will never break again

Let’s rewind and think it over as it gets older in my mind
This memory that I hold onto brings up more and more of you
Instead of thinking on the dark side I should focus on the light
'Cuz memories are more important they shouldn’t black out like the night

Are you the demon inside of me
Trying so hard to be set free
When you want to get out you haunt my dreams
Holding me captive in my own sleep

I want you
Can’t have you
And the more I hold on to memories
The farther you drag me into my dreams

Am I the demon inside of you
Feeling emotions that I feel too
And I hope to get back in your head
Like Tegan and Sara once had said

Let’s start over, turn another leaf
Promises you said that you could keep
On and on and on and on it goes
Lifting yourself up like no one knows

All the parties, all the guys
Anyone who catches your eyes
Lead you to this false reality of who you are

Like a broken record you just spin
All your words familiar 'till the end
We keep slipping faster we’re sliding down this slope where we keep colliding
Slipping to your own sure demise

All the parties, all the guys
Anyone who catches your eyes
Lead you to this false reality
Of who you are and what you want to be

Come on girl just grow up