Calm the Beast

You’re gonna tell me It’s over
And I don’t know what to say
I can’t see your face
But I can’t see me alone
And now I can’t be depressed
So I drink and I drink and I drink and I drink
I’m still thirsty

Everybody wants harmless love
But I couldn’t stand being bored
Now let’s be honest
You should’ve left long ago

I don’t know what to write
‘Cause I don’t know how I feel
When I don’t understand myself
How can you

Everybody wants harmless love
But I couldn’t stand being bored
Now let’s be honest
I never loved, never loved, never loved, never loved you at all

I don’t know what to write
Cause I don’t know how I feel
When I don’t understand myself
How can you

If I am pretty will you love me
If I am funny will you love me
Don't look so unsatisfied
I'll do everything for you

My bed is empty so is my heart
Though it is probably my fault
Making everything a mess
I'll do everything for you
If you fill this space

In this dark place I'm in now
I will cry for love, I will beg for love
I will give up who I am for love

So don't look so unsatisfied
I'll do everything for you

I didn't mean to hurt you
You're really pretty and funny and smart
I'm just not relationship material
I didn't mean to break your heart

You see, I really need my freedom
I wanna drink and smoke and f***
But don't worry, there's someone better for you out there
It's just that ‘till now you had very bad luck

But it's not you

So you fall in love too easily
It's not my fault you started to cry
Believe me, you're better off without me
I'm just not a monogamous guy

Now I didn't plan it, she just came here
And she is pretty and funny and smart
And I've never thought I could feel this way
I didn't mean to break your heart

But it's not you

I'm closing my eyes
I'm lying to you
I'm lying to me
You should go now
You're talking to me
But I hear myself
You're kissing my neck
I'm getting closer

I'm the biggest pretender
I'm the biggest pretender
I'm the biggest pretender
You should go

Now take off your clothes
Though he's still in my head
And you're here just to
Break the silence of my lonely room
Now I'm sick of myself
So I bought a mask
Now you can't see me

I'm the biggest pretender
I'm the biggest pretender
I'm the biggest pretender
You should go

It's a bad dream and I'll probably wake up
In a second or two
People who don't know what my heart is made of
Shouldn't mess around with me
You said you don't appreciate me
Who do you think you are?

Every time I think of it, it's a crisis
You are in my head and I wanna
Kill you, kill you, kill you

But then I calm down again
And I almost forget how I felt 5 minutes ago
People say that I'm just full of myself
I'm not crazy at all

I ran all the way here
But now I can't see the reasons
I try too hard to make a better reality
So I ran all the way here
Just for the chance that you’d come too

I’ve been waiting all-day
To come here and see you
It helped me deny my loneliness
So I ran all the way here
And I don't even know who you are

Who am I doing this for
Who am I doing this for

I refused to fall asleep
Knowing I'd wake up lonely
Sickened by the sour taste
I had to distract my heart
So I wrote a play for us
But no one came to play your part

Who am I doing this for
Who am I doing this for

I ran all the way here
But now I can't see the reasons
I try too hard to make a better reality
So I ran all the way here

I sat for an hour and thought
About the lies I would tell you
Cause I couldn't stand losing face

I just got to see you one more time
To see what you're really worth to me
And maybe I'll be ready to confess

Then you will see me insecure
And much weaker than before
And I will beg you to come back to me

So I just got to see you one more time
To see what you're really worth to me
And maybe I'll be ready to confess

Mother, people are hurting your child
People are hurting your child
Where are you?

Mother, didn't you hear what they said?
Didn't you hear what they said?
Where are you?

Don't ask me why I am so mad
Don't ask me why I am so mad

Mother, I needed to hear that they're wrong
I needed to hear nothing's wrong with me
Now every time he says he wants me to come
When he says he wants me to come
I can't believe him

Don't ask me why I am so sad
Don't ask me why I am so sad

Stay strong, I'm gonna lose it
I'm gonna scream at you
Until you fall asleep

Be sure, I love you
But someone has to end this party.

You said "please, just stop screaming"
You stood there shaking, helpless
Trying to figure out how to calm the beast

Be sure, I love you
But someone has to end this party

I don't know how to react, to react to love
So you'll stay till I'm done, you'll stay till I'm done
And then you leave cause you should

Be sure, I love you
But someone has to end this party

Didn't plan
She is pretty
And I've never thought